A scary, then exciting moment!!

OK, so we had our appointment this morning and when she went to listen to the heartbeat, she couldn't find it. She checked and checked and checked and kept shaking her head. So so put it down and said she'd be right back. Of course I totally started crying and Bud was like, "Don't get too upset just yet". I was thinking, HELLO! She can't find the heartbeat. I was so worried and scared. She came back in with the ultrasound machine and proceed to look for the baby. For the first 15 seconds or so, she couldn't seem to find it. And of course it felt like an eternity. Then, there it was! We could see it's big ol' head and then you could totally see it's spin! It was so exciting. Once she had a good view, we were able to see the heart beating. So that was such a relief. She then tried to hear it again, but couldn't. So she looked at the ultrasound again and this time it was jumping around like crazy and waving it's arms and kicking it's legs. We were so excited! So here are the two pictures we have! Of course they aren't as good as the actual picture, but if you look closely you can see it!!! YAY!
Here is a top view of him/her. Those little dots are his/her legs and arms.

Look at that profile! He/she is so cute!

real wishes

OK, so as I read everyone's comments to my first visit post, I couldn't help but feel a lot better that I wasn't alone on that. But also, I just want to make it known that I never meant to sound as if all I wanted was a bunch of ultrasounds. Ultimately all I really want is a healthy baby/babies. I've been so lucky with this pregnancy so far: no sickness, no major mood swings...nothing! It's been great! So of course I hope and pray it just stays that way and stays healthy! I was just a little put off because I was just under the impression that most people normally have more. So now I feel better knowing that it's normal. At least I get to hear the heartbeat and know he/she/they are doing well!!! Thank you everyone!

boy? girl? twins?

OK, so I thought it would be fun to see what everyone thought. I've posted a poll to the right. What do you think we'll be having? Go vote!

My first visit

OK, so I had my first prenatal visit this morning. I was seen by the Doctor today, but I will on Friday. All we did this morning was do a bunch of paperwork and blood tests. Fun! I'm kinda feeling a little apprehensive about how Medi-cal does their insurance. THEY ONLY COVER ONE ULTRASOUND THE ENTIRE PREGNANCY!!! Does anyone else find this to be really strange? I kind of free put off by it. They only way they will do more is if there is something wrong. I though that was something they did quite often. Am I wrong? Or is this totally lame. I'm having a hard time today because I keep thinking that when all of this is over, I know I'll have a beautiful baby that I'll love, but having an ultrasound was something I was really looking forward to enjoying in my pregnancy. Now I feel like I might not enjoy it as much. I could just be feeling emotional, but thinking about seeing my unborn baby on a screen every once in a while sounds so great to me, and now that I know I'll only get one kinda bums be out. I'll see a doctor on Friday where I will hopefully hear the heartbeat, which is great! But does anyone have any uplifting words for me? Am I wrong or maybe confused? I'm just really feeling down about this right now. Stupid government!!! It's all their fault! If it was for them, the economy wouldn't be the way it is right now and we would still have jobs and I would have real insurance! Maybe next pregnancy.

Bring on the cravings!

It has begun. The cravings have started. As I sat on my couch today, I started to get this funny feeling and I felt I needed something, but I didn't know what it was. So I continued to sit there and it hit me. FRENCH FRIES! Not at all the healthiest thing, but who ever has healthy pregnancy cravings? So with us being on such a tight budget, I didn't know what to do. Once I figured out what it was that I was craving, it began to get worse. I NEEDED it! It was a must. I started to passe a little figuring out what to do, when my husband through out an awesome idea! I think he was being sarcastic, but I was totally on board. I was going to make home made french fries! So I began right away! As I began to peel potatoes, it dawned on me that I could totally work at In and Out! I won't, but I was making fries just like them.
So I sliced them all up...

Fried em' up! Yes I know, again, not the healthiest thing, but it had to be real, not imitation baked fries, no no...

Finally, just a smidgen of sea salt and I was good to go. YUMMY!!!!

11 weeks preggo update!

OK, so first things first, I hardly have a little baby bump, so there won't be a picture quite yet.

In the past 2 weeks or so, my emotions have definitely kicked in. I cry about everything. I watch the simplest, most non-crying movie or show and I just can't hang. I just don't get it! I mean I feel like such a sissy sometimes! I hold back my tears half the time because I think it's just ridiculous!
Another new thing would have to be my eating habits and tummy problems. My stomach has been upset from time to time and has me whining sometimes! Thankfully my husband has been very sweet and lets me sleep as long as I want and doesn't tease me anymore for sleeping all day. I have definitely become a lot more hungry lately, however I can only eat a few bits and then I'm full. So I wake up and I feel like me stomach is eating itself, so I eat something, sometimes I eat too much (not even a lot, but like I said I've learned to only eat a few bits), so then my stomach hurts and about 2 hours later, I'm starving again. I eat all day now, but have learned to snack all day. Come dinner time, I'm never really hungry and I feel bad all the time because Bud and I still cook dinner together and once I sit done to eat, I have a few bits and then I feel totally turned off to eating. It's like all of a sudden I'm grossed out. I don't get it, but all I can do is go along with it for no.
I still have not gone to see the doctor (thanks to the United States wonderful medical services for getting insurance). Since Bud and I have been laid off, we had to sign up for Medi-cal. Thankfully I found out about a program called Healthy Start, which gives me coverage until Medi-cal goes through. I have my first appointment a week from today and then my appointment following that I will be able to finally have my first ultrasound and get to hear and see our little one!
I am just so anxious to see it! It's like I know it's real, but once I see it and hear it, it will be so very real! You know what I mean? I'm just so ready for it! It seems like it's taken forever, and really, it has. If this government would just get it together and have everyone on health insurance in an appropriate way without all small print and shenanigans! Bottom line right now though is that I'm covered and our baby is covered! We'll be just fine and everything will work out wonderfully!
And I promise as soon as I get a visible bump, I'll post a belly shot.

Visiting my angels!

This pass Monday we were finally able to go up and visit Erik and Tanya's little angels. If you don't know the story of Erik and Tanya, read my very first blog.
We've been hit and miss with them and were finaly able to visit on a day that worked for both of us! They are doing so well and we were so happy to see them. I just started crying when I saw them. They too, were so excited to see us. Here are a few pictures of our day! Oh, as well as Bud's new hair, or lack there of.

My two monkeys.

My angel bunch! And my monkey Ethan. Me and Tete taken by Ethan, can you tell by the highth?




It started to snowing and hailing and raining! It was so fun!



Here's Elorah (age 10), driving her little red car around the property. Wouldn't that have been nice to drive at age 10!


Can you tell he put his shoes on by himself?

Here's the kids playing the Wii. It's so funny to watch Ethan!








So Bud and I decided to cut his hair because we have no money and didn't want to spend $20 on a silly hair cut when we can do it ourselves. So this is how it went.

WE NEED SOME HELP!!! ASAP

OK, so some of you may already know, but Bud and I both lost our jobs and we REALLY need some money. We don't have credit cards and don't have a good savings. We're getting some unemployment, but of course, so is everyone else. So obviously it's not as much as when we had jobs. We REALLY REALLY REALLY DO NOT want to have to move out and move in with the parentals. It's just not healthy, we all know this.
We can use all the help we can get. I know a lot of you are out of state and can't really help, but even some advice would be nice.
We are on-line all day long looking at every job search site out there. There just isn't anything. It's so scary right now. So it's almost like you have to know someone in order to get a job. So with that being said, this is what Bud and I are experienced in and if anyone knows of anyone and has any advice on where to maybe look, we would LOVE to know about it. Even if it's just a total temp job. Any extra money right now would be wonderful so we can stay in our own place. Our rent is only $850 so it shouldn't be hard to meet with a little extra income.
So Bud has a lot of experience in construction. He knows how to do ALL kinds of things. He can also pick up on something in seconds if he doesn't quite know. He's your all around handy man! He's also in his last class to get his Certs in Welding!
As for me, I have 5 years of nanny experience. So any kind of child care. I also have experience with twins. I have some experience in cake making as well as some office work. Obviously I can't work doing any kind of heavy lifting because I'm pregnant, but I'm willing to try anything, as long as it's more than $13/hour.
Thank you to everyone who can help. It is so scary out there right now and this life is getting so hard. Any chance we can get to move out of state would be wonderful. But unfortunately you need some money to do that. So hopefully soon would be nice.
Thanks again, and your prays are very much appreciated as well!